What if we pursued every passion we had with the same commitment and urgency we would have if our life depended on the success of our pursuit? No time for pause or procrastination, this means your life. Would more of our dreams come to reality, would the life we dream become the life we are living?
Would all the things we want to get done, actually get done?
This is the question that I have been asking myself lately. I have been doing a lot of thinking, procrastinating…avoiding. This has resulted in not a lot of actual doing and it’s really starting to piss me off! There is a raging tornado of things to do and my mind is spinning not knowing where to start.
I wonder if other people tackle goals for their life with the same commitment and time investment I gave to make deadlines at work?
I know I haven’t applied the same fearless commitment to make things happen in my personal life as I did at my job. I never doubted my ability to reach a goal at work or let the prospect of failure hold me back from trying new things to keep my business moving forward. That fear of failing is affecting my personal life right now, it’s been a huge frustrating distraction. Life is a journey and I believe you can be an active participant and chart your course or you can be a spectator and let life itself dictate your destination. Right now I am the latter, two weeks out from leaving and I am standing on the sidelines watching life steam roll by. So frustrating!!
The questions started to ware me down. Here are some of mine: “Really? sell everything, cash in everything?? This could be the biggest mistake of your life. Is chasing this dream worth the risk?
Here are some questions from friends and family: “What about Mak’s education? What about a retirement plan? Healthcare? Safety? Income? Where will you live? How will you live?!” We don’t have answers for these questions, so much is unknown, even at this point. These questions are all reasons to shelf this dream and label it “What if?”. But then what…. pull it off the shelf in ten or so years to ask ourselves “WHAT IF????”. That wondering would kill me
I have asked myself, “what if it doesn’t work out?” and that question has held me back, slowing this adventure. Fear of failure is one reason people don’t put themselves out there, chase a dream, try something new. But I think it’s more than that, I think what scares me the most is the uncertainty, the not knowing what’s going to happen. I could let that question,”What if it doesn’t work out?” infect my dream and spread like a virus of negativity and kill it. I don’t want to give my fears of failure and uncertainty that power. I am fighting those fears right now with another question, “What if it does?”.
Those types of questions “What if we could?” “What if it does work out?” spurred us on to chase our travel dream like our life depended on the success of our pursuit.
The life we wanted to live that is.
We sacrificed and made decisions sometimes so afraid to make the wrong choice it felt like a gun to the head was needed to force us to commit. I read this quote early on in our planning:
“Figure out what your purpose is in life, what you really truly want to do with your time and life. Then be willing to sacrifice everything and then some to achieve it. If you are not willing to make the sacrifice, then keep searching.”
This dream: to travel and unschool school Mak to give him a world perspective. To give him opportunities he could only have through the experience of traveling. To prove to ourselves, be an example to our son and an inspiration to others that you can live life on your terms, choose not to follow the crowd, chase your own dream, not the stereotypical American dream. That is my purpose. We did sacrifice and then some and the decision is made, nothing is standing in our way now, not fear of failure or uncertainty.
The only thing left to do now, really, is to go.